xanga beats this.
i don't know why.
too bad.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
I missed you, blogspot.
Hello blogspot, how are you?
Occasionally, I discover something in my brain while I lay in bed trying to fall asleep. I wish I wrote it all down, becuase I can't remember anything.
Facebook is the devil, and so I will do my own 25 (though the phase has passed) right here on blogspot. I don't care so shut up.
1. If you talk to me, I've probably lied to you numerous times.
2. Sometimes I feel like a puzzle piece of parts from all different people, and I wonder what part is really me. I bet there's a peice of you in me.
3. I wonder if that's good or bad..
4. Sometimes, if i just keep nodding or saying "mhm," I'm spacing out or judging you in my head.
5. By judging, I just mean I'm catagorizing you and what you're saying and thinking that I'm better (I'm not).
6. I can't help it.
7. I've always wanted to paint the pictures in my brain, but I don't have the patience or the training.
8. When I wake up, I see yellow under my eyelids.
9. I like to press my hands really hard on my eyelids while my eyes are closed, because I can see patterns and colors.
10. I'm just afraid, usually.
11. Sometimes, I just wanna be like everybody else.
12. Usually, I like being me and doing things my own way.
13. These cracker-peanut things are really good.
14. I really really hate that I can't find my finkl and djdoc cd's right now.
15. I think life would have been easier if I was a boy.
16. A lot of times, I pretend to agree with you, even if I don't.
17. And then I blog about it and think about you.
18. I think I'm specialer (i know its not a word) than I am.
19. I just erased the real number 19.
20. my nail color right now is cha cha cherry 8053.
21. I know it would be easier if I give in and did what people usually do.
22. I'm afraid people think I'm stuck up or naive, or that I think they're bad becuase they do things different, or that I'm just a prude and wouldn't understand.
23. Sometimes, I really hate it.
24. I really think I should be a kpopstar. HAHA.
25. If I could paint my walls, I would paint them black.
i should go.
Occasionally, I discover something in my brain while I lay in bed trying to fall asleep. I wish I wrote it all down, becuase I can't remember anything.
Facebook is the devil, and so I will do my own 25 (though the phase has passed) right here on blogspot. I don't care so shut up.
1. If you talk to me, I've probably lied to you numerous times.
2. Sometimes I feel like a puzzle piece of parts from all different people, and I wonder what part is really me. I bet there's a peice of you in me.
3. I wonder if that's good or bad..
4. Sometimes, if i just keep nodding or saying "mhm," I'm spacing out or judging you in my head.
5. By judging, I just mean I'm catagorizing you and what you're saying and thinking that I'm better (I'm not).
6. I can't help it.
7. I've always wanted to paint the pictures in my brain, but I don't have the patience or the training.
8. When I wake up, I see yellow under my eyelids.
9. I like to press my hands really hard on my eyelids while my eyes are closed, because I can see patterns and colors.
10. I'm just afraid, usually.
11. Sometimes, I just wanna be like everybody else.
12. Usually, I like being me and doing things my own way.
13. These cracker-peanut things are really good.
14. I really really hate that I can't find my finkl and djdoc cd's right now.
15. I think life would have been easier if I was a boy.
16. A lot of times, I pretend to agree with you, even if I don't.
17. And then I blog about it and think about you.
18. I think I'm specialer (i know its not a word) than I am.
19. I just erased the real number 19.
20. my nail color right now is cha cha cherry 8053.
21. I know it would be easier if I give in and did what people usually do.
22. I'm afraid people think I'm stuck up or naive, or that I think they're bad becuase they do things different, or that I'm just a prude and wouldn't understand.
23. Sometimes, I really hate it.
24. I really think I should be a kpopstar. HAHA.
25. If I could paint my walls, I would paint them black.
i should go.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Time for some, what's the color.
WHITE NAILS WHITE NAILS hahahah just for you (; lol don't hate me.
someday, maybe you'll get it. heeeeheeeheee.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MATTHEW (:
I didn't forget, honest.
I watched a great movie, just now, when I should have been studying. Which is pretty much the story of life, but anyways... It made me laugh, and it made me cry, and now I feel happy (:
DOWNERS
Begopah.
I messed up the pinky.
Having to watch this secretly haha.
My latest addiction!
Lame kidbrother wants me to play chess and I'm behind.
Confusion about this new way of living together..
BUTT: I LOVE THIS MOMENT BECOZZ
I can eat real food tomorrow haha.
I like staring at my fingernails in the mirror.
These amazing headphones!
This wonderful world of Kpop, i don't care so shut up.
Derek pushing notes through the crack in my door.
Being able to laugh with them again.
All in all, I'd say the pros outweigh the cons.
SO, why can't I get my butt to work!? HMM?
SPECIAL: Maybe you just have to earn it back, being afraid won't do anything, yea? you tard.
I keep moving you to the top of my buddy list, haha.
she dances.
someday, maybe you'll get it. heeeeheeeheee.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY MATTHEW (:
I didn't forget, honest.
I watched a great movie, just now, when I should have been studying. Which is pretty much the story of life, but anyways... It made me laugh, and it made me cry, and now I feel happy (:
DOWNERS
Begopah.
I messed up the pinky.
Having to watch this secretly haha.
My latest addiction!
Lame kidbrother wants me to play chess and I'm behind.
Confusion about this new way of living together..
BUTT: I LOVE THIS MOMENT BECOZZ
I can eat real food tomorrow haha.
I like staring at my fingernails in the mirror.
These amazing headphones!
This wonderful world of Kpop, i don't care so shut up.
Derek pushing notes through the crack in my door.
Being able to laugh with them again.
All in all, I'd say the pros outweigh the cons.
SO, why can't I get my butt to work!? HMM?
SPECIAL: Maybe you just have to earn it back, being afraid won't do anything, yea? you tard.
I keep moving you to the top of my buddy list, haha.
she dances.
It's kind of late (?)
Nobody could know,
I hate that you recognized even just a little.
Currently listening to: Only You / 김종욱
don't care so shut up.
It's so strange that I keep thinking in korean first. What's wrong with me? It makes me feel lonelier. Heh.
Why is it so hard to just say it, and just let it all loose, good bye forever.
It's as if I'm back at square 1,
or it's the time and I'm just yeminhae. again, don't care so shut up.
This entry has emo undertones, whatevs.
1:09 am.
this is me.
__
she jumps from floe to floe, flying
over broken glass; slow then fast then slow,
like puzzle pieces
drifting.
__
When the lights are dimmed
and smoke fills the room,
When the droning gets louder and louder until
you dissappear,
how long?
__
when hope lies hidden, nobody cares.
goodbye.
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